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December 24th, 2007


12:17 am - 2007; in a nutshell.

So as this year comes to a close, here is my take on the past 12 month's. 

I learnt more about myself this year than I ever have at any other point in my life. I may say that every year but every year it seems to ring truer and truer. I learnt that you can't make yourself healthy just by thinking it will happen. You have to take action and actually make a concious effort to eat better and sleep longer. You can't make someone feel something they don't want to. No matter how much you try to push it. The worst possible things always end up to be doors that open to the best moments of your life. People who you never think will hurt you, hurt you. But, the one's who are worth it prove themselves to you in the times they are needed most. Your best friend can become your worst enemy over night. And that no matter how much you want it, thing's DON'T always go your way.

But, I also realized that I have more to offer than I ever thought was possible. I am stronger than I ever knew. I can overcome things I never thought possible before this year. Mono sucks. But, life goes on. Having your heart broken can feel the end of the world. But, then you'll meet someone who makes you realize how worthwhile you are again when you least expect it. Family support is worth more than anything money could buy. 

But, most of all, I learnt to not let the small things get me down. Life is too short to dwell on what can't be changed. Shit happens. Life can be miserable sometimes. But for every crappy moment there is an overwhelimgly amazing moment waiting around the corner to counteract it. The people you think will be in your life forever aren't always and the one's you never expected become huge parts in it. 

All in all 2007 was a learning year. But, I wouldnt change a minute - good or bad. Because in the end, I'm happier and healthier than ever before and that's a beautiful thing that took my whole life to happen.


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August 18th, 2007


01:29 am
So, my life got super complicated. jon and me broke up in the beginning of july..and now we're at a point where we're best friends and back to how we used to be..and its either going to go one of 2 ways. im just not sure what thats gonna be at thsi moment in time..

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April 4th, 2007


11:31 pm
Here's what I figure. I'm not going to listen to people bitch about their lives when no one ever took the time to be there for me when I needed them. Not going to waste my time putting effort in to help when it won't ever come back to me. So everyone needs to get over themselves and let it go.

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March 30th, 2007


09:15 am
*sigh*...this pretty much describes everything.


So I Need You - 3 Doors Down

If you could step into my head, tell me would you still know me.
If you woke in my bed, tell me would still hold me.
Or would you simply let it lie, leaving me to wonder why.
I can't get this out of this head, I call mine. And will you say.

Oh no I can't let you go, my little girl, because you're holding up my world, so I need you.
Your imitation of my walk and the perfect way you talk.
It's just a couple of the million things that I love about you,

So I need you, So I need you, So I need you, So I need you.

And if I jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge, tell me would still follow me.
And if I made you mad today, tell me would you love me tomorrow?
please. Or would you say that you don't care and then leave me standing here.
Like a fool who is drowing in despair and screamin'.

Oh no I can't let you go, my little girl, because you're holding up my world, so I need you.
Your imitation of my walk and the perfect way you talk.
It's just a couple of the million things that I love about you,

So I need you, So I need you, So I need you, So I need you.

I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own.

Oh no I can't let you go, my little girl, because you're holding up my world, so I need you.
Your imitation of my walk and the perfect way you talk.
It's just a couple of the million things that I love about you,

So I need you, So I need you, So I need you, So I need you.

Current Mood: [mood icon] distressed

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March 19th, 2007


10:55 pm
Time for an emo post...well, just because I can.


I really miss my best friend. I really do. Ever since we both started dating our boyfriends..we are hardly even friends anymore. I remember when we made a pact..and shook on it.. "We will spend at least 1 night a week..if not more together. We won't be like other best friends!"  Well..fuck that. Because...6 months later..as much as I love Jon with all my heart..I no longer have my best friend. She even moved out of our apartment and in with her boyfriend. I told her that I didn't liek him..cause he's a douchebag and she can do a lot better. And it just made EVERYTHING awkward. And for the past 3 months..we have barely talked. I've been like sisters with this girl since the 9th grade. We were living in the same apartment together and spoke on average..2 times a week..if that. We used to spend every day together..doing everything together. And as much as we talk about what's going on, now that she's moved out..it's just not the same. I hate her boyfriend more than anything. We both changed..it just seems like it would never happen to us. Yeah..this is me being emotional and retarded..but fuck it.

I haven't written in about 2 years...quite literally. But I wrote 2 poems this week. One was a love poem..the other me just venting.

For The Love Of My Life.

Kiss my lips and make me see,
That you'll always be here,
I'll always be free.

Touch my hips and I won't ask why,
You've come into my life,
My perfect guy.

Take my hand and lead me along,
Show me I was right,
And prove them all wrong.

Everything makes sense now,
It all just makes sense.
You've changed my lfe more than you know,
What began as friendship had so much more to show.

Hold me close and never let go,
I'm all yours now,
My heart has a new glow.

In our own world that feels so secure,
I'll never leave your side,
I'm always going to be here.







..and me just being emo hahahah


And I wonder;
Do you miss how we used to be,
Like sisters,
So happy and free.

No secrets and silent days,
If I could go back,.
There's so much I would say.

Best friends one day,
The next you don't talk.
I'm sorry to say,
I'm in a state of shock.

I miss how we'd talk all night,
And if we had a problem,
We'd make it right.

I miss knowing you're there,
No matter what,
You'd just always be there.

What happened; where did we go wrong,
I can't think,
So I'll just wrote this song.

I miss everything more than you know,
I better tell you this,
Although it's already starting to show.
Current Mood: [mood icon] blah

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March 8th, 2007


03:33 pm - What Goes Around Comes Around.
Not that anyone even uses this thing anymore. But, I still like to write about how things are going..even if it's boring ahaha. As of right now I am moving into a 1 bedroom apartment...just 1 floor up lol. And I'm going back to work on Monday..after basically 2 month's off lol. Gooood times right there let me tell you. I watched my friend Kait get a tattoo yesterday, and a piercing actually. I don't like needles...but it was pretty cool to watch.

Me and Jon watched Borat the other night. I have to say that it was waaaaaaay better in theatres and the first time I watched it. Still funny...but pretty stupid at the same time.

I realized the other day I have grown up so much in the past year. I seriously wouldn't have even imagined living completely on my own this time last year. Now it's all I want. Krista's been gone for about a week now..I dunno. It's lonely but it's nice to have my own space again. 

A lot has changed..but all in all:


I can walk again..so life must be good lol.
Current Location: my computer chair
Current Mood: [mood icon] content
Current Music: Everything

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February 28th, 2007


05:44 pm
Healthwise this year has been horrible. Since the day before New Years I have been incredibly sick. First I had strep, which then turned into mono, got a horrible kidney infection. Almost got sent to the hospital cause of that..then I went back to work after a month. A week later, actually not even..I get strep. And NOW..I have a complication with strep where it's gone into my blood and attacks my legs. I almost went to the emergency room the other day because I couldn't even move my legs without screaming. So hopefully I can be healthy for awhile once this whole thing is done. Cause right now I get thE choice between..laying in bed, sitting on here orrrrrr laying on my couch all day!!!!!!! OMG. what options..what exciting days I will be having for the next little while. I'm so fucking bored it's not even funny. My mom comes and keeps me company, which is nice and I see Jon too..but I'm seriously going crazy with boredom..I wanna go back to work. But I'm not allowed to cause of my legs. Gawwwwd how did this happen lol. Oh well it could be worse..but it still blows. But let me say..I sure do love pain killers now..cause they make me be able to get out of bed!!

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February 7th, 2007


10:55 pm
Pretty much the perfect night. Perfect in every way. Jon and I went out for dinner and talked for awhile. Then we went to the beach and talked more. I realize everyday I'm with him, makes me fall more and more in love with him. 4 month's flew by and it feels like we've been together even longer than that. We never had any awkward beginning of the relationship stuff that alot of people get. I'm dating my best friend who turned into the love of my life. The first person who respects who I am..and doesn't just say that to get some. BAJASHJAJKDFDJHGZ I can't even describe my happiness anymore lol.

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January 18th, 2007


07:17 pm
so no work for a month now..cuz mono blows a big one

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January 13th, 2007


12:30 pm
Update on my life:


I'm more in love than ever.
I either have Mono or a reaction to Peniciilin.
I'm working a shit job.
I have the best friends ever.
I'm with the most amazing boy I've ever met.
I appreicate my family so much more.

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January 2nd, 2007


10:30 am
The flu loves me. I hate the flu. going on 7 days now...yipeee

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December 25th, 2006


12:37 am
I found this and thought it was fucking soooooo funny. HAHAHAHAHA.




Roses are dead ... violets are too
im still in love ... but not with you
thought you hurt me ... and made me cry
but i was in love ... with another guy
simply because ... you have no class
all you can do ... is kiss my ass
you sit around ... and talk your shit
so fuck you ... and your lil ass dick
thought you left me ... but i left you
what my man is doing ... you cant do
you tell your hommies...you played me like a bitch
and ill tell my girlss ...you were a fuck and ditch
you said you liked me ... but it wasnt true
well guess what mother fucker ... You got played too




...Life is soo good right now. Although I'm a lil lonerly becasue Jon and Ktown have both gone home for Christmas. Oh well. I work lots. I even work Christmas day ahhaa. yeaaaah so none of you can complain about how you have to work this week.. at least you got Christmas day off. Anyhow.. I miss my baby..but that's okay. MERRY CHRISTMAS YOU FUCKERS!

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December 3rd, 2006


07:20 pm - Gongshow of a night!


Me and my baby .:)




Kait and moi.


Awww I love him soooo much!



Wooooo gongshows




Jon got a little goooned hahaha


Fuck ya~









...sooo im a creepshow in this one hahahaha










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December 1st, 2006


01:27 am
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..until the end of time. This doesn't even add up to as much as I love you. You've changed my life and made me see why everything else, sucked but was worth it. And why it never worked out with anyone else.  You are my everything and more. I can't even imagine what life would be like without you..and I don't even have to worry about that..after everything we talked about last night...I know you're not going anywhere.  *sigh* I could do this for the rest of my life.
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Current Music: Country! yessss

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November 27th, 2006


02:48 am
Push - Sarah McLachlan

Every time I look at you the world just melts away.
All my troubles, all my fears, dissolve in your affections.
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am...
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land.

Chorus:
You stay the course, you hold the line, you keep it all together.
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in.
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me.
You're the one true thing I know I can believe.

I get mad so easy, but you give me room to breathe.
No matter what I say or do, 'cause you're too good to fight about it .
Even when I have to push, just to see how far you'll go, you won't stoop down to battle... but you never turn to go.

Chorus

There are times I can't decide, when I can't tell up from down.
You make me feel less crazy, when otherwise I'd drown.
But you pick me up & brush me off, and tell me I'm OK.
Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day.





This song totally reminded me of Jon and how and why I've fallen head over heels for him. And how he's done the same. He's seen me at my worst, and still loves me the same..if not more. He is what  my life has been leading too. I know, people never believe when someone says these things..but, he's my best friend and the love of my life...and nothing else has made sense like this has..Nothing. I love you baby.
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November 23rd, 2006


08:48 am
So...greatest night of my whole life. I'm such a dork lol. Last night I realized how much one person can become your whole world and how nothing else matters anymore. Nothing else makes any sense. Last night I saw him in a completely different light...last night we said I love you for the first time. :D No one has ever said that back to me...or even said it first. For the first time in my whole life I don't feel so alone. I'm not afraid to open up completely and let someone in. Last night my whole world changed..and I couldn't be happier.
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Current Music: You - Switchfoot

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November 15th, 2006


12:12 am - stolen from anastasia lol
1* First grade teacher's name: mrs grealy
2* Last word you said: see you on sunday (to jon)
3* Last song you sang: some savage garden song lol..wooot im pretty cool!
4* Last person you hugged: jon
5* Last thing you laughed at: the MUFFIN MAN lol hahahahahahaha
6* Last time you said I don’t remember: i dont remember lol
7* Last time you cried: i cried from laughing so hard tonight
8* Last time you smiled: 20 minutes ago

*PRESENT*
9* What color socks are you wearing: black
10* What's under your bed: i do not know
11* What time did you wake up today: 9ish
12* Current taste: pepsi
13* Current hair: down and straightened
14* Current smell: hand lotion
15* Current annoyance: my sleepiness
16* Current longing: find a better job
17* Current desktop background: alexisonfire
18* Current worry: i dont have one :)
19* Current hate: work
20* Current favourite article of clothing: green sweater
21* Favourite physical feature of the preferred sex: eyes
22* Last CD that you listened to: the country one
23* Favourite place to be: anywhere but my house
24* Least favourite place: my house and how it smells like mould..good times
25* Time you wake up in the morning: depends on the day
26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: guitar again
27* Favourite color: blue
28* Do you believe in an afterlife: sorta
29* How tall are you: 4'11
30* Current favorite word/saying: i like to say eh a lot these days lol.
31* Favourite book: hes just not that into you
32* Favourite season: winter
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my grandad
34* Favourite memory growing up: camping

*FUTURE*
35* Where do you want to go for college?nowhere at zee moment
36* What is your career going to be like: journalist or social worker
37* How many kids do you want: 0?
38* How old do you want to be when you get married: i dont know

*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: yes :)
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: yes, yes i have
41* Been to New York: no
42* Been to Florida: yes
43* Been to California: yes
44* Been to Hawaii: yes
45* Been to Mexico: no
46* Been to China: no
47* Been to Jamaica: no
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: actually yes..happens alot to me
49* Missed anyone: yeah
50* Regretted anything: regret is dumb
51* Broken someone's heart: no

*RANDOM*
52* Do you have a crush on someone: yeah :)
53* What book are you reading now: n/a
54* Worst feeling in the world: being used
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning:  nooooo i have to work til 12
56* How many rings before you answer: 2 or 3
57* Future daughter's namenot gonna happen so i duno
58* Future son's name: look up
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
60* If you could have any job you wanted: social worker
61* Wish were here: yes ;)
62* College plans: do not exist at the moment
63* Piercings: 0

*THE EXTRA STUFF*
64* Do you do drugs: nope
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: redken stuff
68* What are you most scared of: i dont wanna say lol
69* What clothes do you sleep in: nothing usually
70* Who is the last person that called you: jon, to say he was on his way
71* Where do you want to get married:i dont know
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: nothing
73* Who do you really hate: no comment
74* Been In Love: yep..im pretty sure
75* Are you timely or always late: early
76* Do you have a job: yeah
77* Do you like being around people: i used to..then i started being a cashier
78* Best feeling in the world: knowing someone loves you like you love them
79* Are you for world peace: yeah
80* Are you a health freak: hahaha wanna see where i live? yeah, rethink the question
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: normally assholes..but i seem to have moved past that to the ones who are actually decent
82* Your best feature: i think my eyes...or my WINNING PERSONALITY!!! lol
83* Are you lonely right now: no :)
84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: i dont really think about it
85* Do you want to get married: maybe one day
86* Do you want kids? no

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*
87* Cried: yes...from being too happy lol
88* Bought Something: food?
89* Gotten Sick: no
90* Sang: yup
91* Said I Love You: yes
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them: yeah, and i did
93* Met Someone: nooo
94* Moved On: to what?
95* Talked To Someone: yea
96* Had A Serious Talk: sort of
97* Missed Someone: Yup
98* Hugged Someone: yup
99* Yelled at Someone: no
100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: no

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November 2nd, 2006


02:43 am
Well..it's been like a yr hahaha jk but it seems like it. So much has changed. I have the most amazing boyfriend in the whole world. Yeah. my first actual relationship. woooot he calls me his gf and hes amazing. he was my best friend for so long. and liked me, but iwas hung up on steve.....so i took my time, got over steve and realized how amaizng this guy right in front of me was and now we're together. thsi is it..the one ive been looking for. its not about physical stuff at all. its actually about feeling something for someone :)   fuck im happy. my friends all approve. my parents approve. life is perfection.

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September 17th, 2006


09:31 pm
I found this tonight..and I SERIOUSLY couldn't believe how much I related to it. 


"Every girl has that one boy that they'll never get over.
That one who makes them laugh when they dont even wanna smile
The one who you get butterflies just when someone says his name.
The one who has his name written all over your heart.
The one who you compare every guy to.
That one boy you never could get sick of talking about.
The boy that when he kisses you, your heart skips a beat.
The one that you cry over and over about.
The one that no one can understand "why him?".
That one everyone thinks you can do better.
The one you ask yourself why her & not me?"

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September 12th, 2006


11:49 am - "I'm walking home from work tonight." "..do you have a death wish?!!!"
So, I was walking home tonight from work at like 12 am, minding my own business, when these guys rode by on their bikes. And then they asked me to fight. I was like nooooo. lol. God I love Esquimalt sometimes hahah.

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